The other day I had a little moment when I was listening to my iPod and "You Flew Away" came on random and I just missed Stephen and sometimes it doesn't feel like he is no longer with us...but then when I think about it, it really hits. His sudden and tragic passing really makes me put into perspective what is important in life... Family, friends, and love. I think about serial killers and rapists and just horrible people that are out there and I say to myself, "why" - The only answer I can come up with is I believe that God only wants the best around Him that's why He takes certain beautiful people without warning. As Ronan said he "is now the perfect angel" - as are all the loved ones we have lost and will lose.

I was just listening to my iPod when Don't Stop Looking For Love came on....ever since Stephen died, I've always skipped past his solo songs cos I've found them so hard to even try to listen to. But, just now, my finger paused over the skip button and, for some reason, I couldn't bring myself to do it. So, I've just listened to my first solo Stephen song in full since 10th October

And, to be honest, I don't know why I've put it off for so long, it was absolutely fine and it felt good to be able to hear his "solo" voice again!

Laura xx

I've not been able to listen to any BZ or Stephen related song yet, apart from GIA, just every now and again. Aswell as other songs from other artists that remind me of Stephen, which I'm working on at the min.

Gem
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Exactly! I couldn't bring myself to listen to "You Flew Away" until it randomly came on...and I was driving so I was unable to skip...but I'm glad I listened to it.

I had my appraisal at work yesterday and ended up speaking about Stephen for the first time to my boss....I found it quite therapeutic though and I was able to set her straight on a few things about Andrew as she only knew what she had read in the papers. But she didn't want to trust what they said!

Laura xx

I'm impressed you managed to get your appraisal round to stephen, how on earth did you do that?

I'm glad you got to let someone else know the truth though

Cos I'm a genius hahahaha! No, seriously, she noticed my locket just as we were rounding off so then we got talking about Stephen, and then Mikey on Dancing On Ice

Laura xx

It's half a year now since Stephen passed. I can't belive it actually... I hope everyone is doing fine today.

I can't believe it's been six months and hope the boyz, steo's family, friends and Andrew are ok and also you guys on here.

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I read your comments with great interest

Some days it seems I get better and I try to listening to Stephen's new songs, but often I have to stop and some other days it's nothing to do with me

I can't believe it's six months Stephen passed away, I don't feel better....

Stephen I miss you so much...

I close my eyes and try to go to sleep,
But with the sadness inside I begin to weep.
Suddenly I remember what you once said to me,
Just meet me in the stars, waiting for you I will be.

Suzanne